Dream that hurts

It was just a dream, but it hurts me...
I dreamed of you and my confusion, i dreamed of something that i thought i had left behind far years ago, i thought it was the end of all pains by leaving everything behind, by not seeing and contacting each other... by hoping that we all would be fine and happy.
I know i had pressed on you too much, hoping that one day you would change and taste the fruit of your own success... i told the whole world that you would change and progress by yourself and that's why i left, anyway that's time for me to leave. I am not Goddess, i can't do much for someone else life, not even my own, sometimes. But the truth is, at the bottom of my heart, i am scared what if you gone back to be the old you and let go of everything because there is no one to hold on. I am still afraid of this secretive thought that i have until today. Although my working place is just 15 minutes from where you work, and i have been working here for more than a year, yet i do not have the courage to contact you and sometimes not even have the guts to ask about your condition from friends that i met down on the street sometimes.
But the dream last night awoke me and hurts me once again...