The Last Observation

My last observation today! Phew!
The happiest thing that I get to hear today is that the lecturer said that she never sees any practical trainee as passion and as enjoy as me. Hehe… happy lo. Because my lecturer also said that she wished every teacher was like me…
I do not really understand what they meant by that. But I only know that I done what I supposed to do. Well, that’s my style. I do the thing that I think I should do, the rest I will just leave it to God. However, I’m glad that at least some people do appreciate and see the good thing within me.
Last night, Hooi Chuen and I went around the taman here. A lot of big taman here, regret that we only get to know about this place in the last month…
I suggested that we asked for permission to stay one more month here, but I do not know if they would let us do such a thing. I talked to my lecturer about the silly idea and she said she will definitely help us to ask about it from the urusetia and the school. Our hearts pumping hard while waiting for the news to come. We made such decision because it’s hard to leave the kids here. We only get to know them better these few weeks and it’s already the time for us to go. I understand that we can get other good experience in other places, but it will never be the same anymore. We have so many months in our lives and why can’t we just spend another one month with those we love and who we might never see them again for the rest of our lives. Just one month and it will never enough, but at least we still have some more time to help those kids that need help here, especially to upgrade their mentality.
Our lecturer said that we are the first to extend our practical, never any practical teacher done like that before and she said that we are different and we do, of course!
I do not know how much you guys will agree with my silly decision, but please pray for us! We done it without money and hopefully we can leave something to the kids before we leave.
The guy that look liked Kent started to notice at me and his teacher who are friend to us told him that one of the taecher’s boyfriend look liked him. God! Although she said she didn’t mention my name but I’m damn sure that he and his friends knew about it. From the way they laughed at him and his face turned red and tried to hide from me and peep at me when I didn’t look at him. God! My face turned red, okay? After all these years, I felt the shyness again! Sometimes I’m afraid that I might get confused between him and Kent as well, as they look so alike, just that he is shorter. But I can tell you he is man, ok?
I managed to talk to him today. I relieved in his class and they are now having the SPM trial exam, but he slept most all the times and cheated with his friends, I called him up and talked personally to him and advise him to try his best and he said okay!
Seeing him just like seeing Kent…
My heart blossom for the whole day! He looks at me every time I pass by him and now he smiles to me… wow! I feel so young now! Heeh… bad! But I did share with Kent everything that happened between us.
Last week, I found out from one of the girl student that his girlfriend is the girl that banged my door last time. Oh! God! I had the instinct that his girlfriend will be her and it is really her. At that time I was at the swimming pool, what I can tell is that my heart sunk into the very bottom of the swimming pool! As if Kent is betraying me… I don’t care who his girlfriend is but at least not the bitch, that’s what is in my mind. But I’m not the God to judge a person, so I believe that the bitch might good in some ways…
Sometimes can’t tahan with myself, too emotional and sentimental… I get upset and happy easily, but most of the time I’m numb. But what I cab say is that I’m so damn Love you all!