An evening at Taman Peruna

I think he really wants to change, as last night he admitted to me that he wore the tie because he wished to change. My God! It is liked what I’m thinking about. I noticed about it right after the second day I talked to him, he wore tie and it’s a symbol. I’m wondering, what kind of guy he is…
He even told me that he once has a 4 years girlfriend and broke u because the girl cheated on him. He was hurt badly that he said he would not go back to Sarawak anymore. He even plays at girls. He is the process to break up with Zulaiha and I asked him if it is because of what I told him. He said nothing like that, he already knew her behavior from the very beginning and he asked her to change for three times already, but she keeps doing the same mistake. I differentiate what is like and love to him. I even shared my past with him, about what happened in Form 6 and relationship with Kent. He keep quite every time I mentioned about Kent, the same thing happened on the first day I hang around with him, where I asked him to said ‘hello’ to Kent, he said it but keep quite after that, then HC told me that others said that he was jealous. I don’t think so, but shy would be the suitable word to describe him. He was cute; he bitted a friend that sat beside him when I asked him where he used to date with his girlfriend. Oh! My God! He is so cute, all right?
He said he will change after this and asked me after I go away, I would not have chances to see his changing, then he can lie about it, as if he don’t want me to go but to stay… I said he needed to change not because of others but himself. He knocked. I wish that he understand. We promised to keep in touch no matter what happen and I saw we still can meet once a year. He was thinking about something at that time… I told him how I felt when I received the message from Dr. Noreen and he is the one that came across my mind and he is the reason that I decided to stay back for another one month. He promised to change and I wish he will keep his word. Anyway, I believe him, as he said he never cheat on his ex-girlfriend within the four years. I was surprised and once again I’m wondering what kind of he is. He told me that he does not have any good friend, yet still hang around with them, I’m wondering what he is thinking about.
I gave him the magnet and letters that I wrote to him these few days. For the very first time, he said thank you to me.
Actually, we went into Petronas to watch the basketball match and I asked him to come along; he came but shies to sit beside me. I saw his friends push him with their arms and he followed them go away after that. He sent me a message to tell me that he has thing to do so he needs to go. Perhaps he doesn’t want to go, but his friends asked him to go as they don’t want to watch the match.
We watch for a while and went back to Peruna and bought some food, ate beside the field.
I kept asking him to come to the school, as it will be my last day and I even sent him a message to remind him the next morning.
I waited him at the hunt at the car park and we got to see a lot of students passed by. I was so damn happy to see him wore smart with tie and with long sleeves, neatly. At least he respect me in some way J
There is baca yasin this morning and as usual we needed to go in the class to look after the students. Is like dreams come true for me, because last time I enjoy so much relieving the Friday’s class, but there is no more because exam was in the progress this few weeks. My last day and the very last time to do so.
I saw him in the toilet and combed his hair, I said he is handsome enough already.
I went in his class and gave them presents and talked a little bit, hugged them and shake hand with the guys. A big guy named Fais pull my hand roughly, in which I almost fell down. They scolded him. The most important thing is that when I told them if one day they couldn’t find me with my number, then please try my email any time. I saw him looked at the email address that written in the sharing paper that I shared with them. It was so touch, at least he cares to know… J
See Jie helped me to take photo with him and she said that we were liked couple; I just ignored to avoid any misunderstanding. Then, we took some photos before the last period bell rang, in his class. The guys taught me to shake hand like a kadet police. I’m going to miss everything here…
Form 1B and Form 4PA all cried and kissed my hands… I can’t… it’s hard…
Today I get to know that he is a Christian, so what I said is that “Jesus loves you and I love you too.”
I went to play basketball with HC at Taman Peruna, I saw he came back so I sent him a message. I waited and waited, but he didn’t come. When we were finished, then only he came walked slowly as if he is shy and uneasy. We talked a lot. He told me he only likes to play computer game and games, sometimes skate boat. Last time he ran for whole day for practicing and that’s why he wished to rest now. I said not too long. He knocked.
I bought a pack of cigarette and threatened him that if he smoke more than twice a day, I will smoke as well. He said no and he will stop. His motor is broken, and need money to repair. His money all wasted on his motorbike. He failed the motorbike license and now lazy to take it again. He said his motorbike accident once a week. He broke his shoulder’s tissue in last year accident, as he raced last time. Lastly, I patted on him to tell him that I care and I love him so I want him to take a good care of himself. He knocked shyly.
He said will come to find me at Dayang’s shop if he has time, but I asked him to come. He didn’t come of course.
He said can do a camping at Taman Rekreasi. But then said that picnic will do, I said I prefer to go for camping, but he kept saying that it’s dangerous and when I asked why, he said that don’t I understand? I said no, lastly he said afraid not enough food. I said never mind, we can go by the afternoon and save the food for the night and go back next day, then the food will be enough. He was quiet and after came back home and thought about it, only I get to understand what is the real meaning of ‘dangerous’ that he mentioned. God! Suddenly, I felt that I was so damn stupid and ashamed of I had told him.
I called him just now and he asked me to throw the cigarette. I said no, if he maintains 2 cigarettes a day, then I’m okay but if he takes more than 2, I’ll take it as well. He said no, girls don’t take cigarette with them and it was not nice. He said that I was funny and laughed in the phone. I asked why, he said don’t know how to say. Last night he said the same thing too, he felt that I was funny. At first, what I done with my hair in the bank, then wearing make up in the class and lots more… I felt like accused with something that I didn’t do…
He kept saying that he don’t want to swim because he is shy and then said he got an ugly tattoo…
This guy! Funny…