Best Friend...

All the form 5 boys laughed at me and Eric said that we coupled or something liked that. He doesn’t dare to look at me and I knew that he was shy. When I talked to Annuar in front of the Bilik Kaunseling, his friends called his name and look at me. I pretended that I didn’t hear and he looked at me once in a while. I knew that he is shy, so after the bell rang, I stop him and talked to him in front form 3 class and his friends again laughed at us and Arnold tried to listen what I’m talking to him. I asked him if he always hang around and he said only sometime, but I knew that it’s the same to what he told me last time about the Math’s test and the form 4 syllabuses that he don’t know how to do. Then, I also said that don’t care about what they said about us and he knocked. Then, came Fahmi, who asked me several times to come to his kampung and I was too concentrate that I didn’t hear anything. What he done is punching the wall and both Eric and I laughed. I told him that he is so nice that he sang to me during the Hari Guru, with guitar and sunglasses and bow down, as if he is the Mexicon guy who plays the guitar to a girl.
To my surprised, we met him in the BSN bank with his mom. And at that time I’m doing a stupid thing, combed my hand with my hand and looked in the counter’s mirror. Then, Hooi Chuen called me and told me that there is Eric and blurly, I turned to look at him who later Hooi Chuen told me that he stood there for a couple of minuets and looked at my stupid action. I was shocked and laughed. What a shame, felt that no more image.
I asked him to come by, but he shocked his head, perhaps he was scared of his mom. After finishing withdrawal, I didn’t see him, perhaps he went away…
We slept till 5p.m and Seng Peng invited us to her house. I was so surprised to receive a message from Eric asking what I’m doing and I told him that I want to go out then he said that he also want to pay his friend a visit. Is a good sign anyway.
Yesterday, he looked at me for several time at the Talatak Ilmu and when others asked me to sign my name, he asked me to sign mine on a piece of photo, which is her girlfriend’s. I signed, but felt uneasy because of it. Anyway, it proved that I was important to him… at least, he asked me to sign on something that he feels important.
Tana and others told me that Eric is good now and I was touch. At first, I’m still curious about what they told me until tonight where we hang around with Annuar and Ogan at the Taman Peruna’s field. I sent him a message and asked him to step out if he is at home and he will saw something weird at the field. He came after 2-3 minutes and told me that he went to Pasar Malam. He looked at me from far as if he wants to come nearer, but he didn’t. So, I walked towards him and talked to him. He told me that he wishes to change and when I asked him when did he feels want to change. He said at the day I talked to him… I was touch and I never thought that I can change him so fast and I told him to keep going on even if I’m no more here. He told me about his girlfriend and he has two, all right? Which he is thinking about to break with the old one and I advised him choose only one. He has no good friend and he is not close to his parent, that’s why he went out most of the time. He got one good friend, who moved to Kedah and lost contact after he lost his handset.
He asked about my family and where do I live. I’m so happy.
After came back from Taman Peruna, I sent him a message to tell him that I’m willing to be his good friend forever. To my surprised, he sent me this ‘betul ke cikgu nk jd kwn sejati sy.dlm hidup sy ini hanya cikgu seorg sahaje.cikgu yg baik kat sy. tima kasi kerana sedarkn sy dr kesilapan.’ (Eric – 0173760584, 24May2006, 23:44:08) ‘Ye ke… cikgu ini lain dari yg lain la. ape2 pun sy akan igat sampai bile2 yg cikgu ni paling baik dgn sy di dunia ini.’ (Eric – 0173760584, 24May2006, 00:03:10) I wish that I could even longer and help him up…
At last, I knew that I’m doing the right thing and he is one of my hopes… Liked what I told him that day, no matter what I’ll never let him go, no matter how many times he made me disappointed.
I told HC, Seng Peng and Pei Woon that I would fall in love with this guy, if there is no Kent. Perhaps, I love the kind of guy like Kent.
Two more days and everything will be finish, if only time will come back all over again…
I wish to take him away…